Neck deep in the middle of trying times it can be hard to stay grateful. Certainly when I feel that I'm doing the best that I can, I am remaining humble, and have set aside my selfish nature, Day by day I step up to the home plate of life and give it my best swing. Here they come, curve balls, a whole lot of heat, change ups, and your occasional spitball, No Fair!! and there's no guaranty that I'm going to win this game, never mind the world series. OK enough baseball analogy's. You get my point, life's not fair and what do I have to be grateful for when I bust my hump and keep getting the dirty end of the stick. I mean its like every days a game of cream the guy with the ball and I'm "THE GUY" and the ball is nothing more then my humble attempt to forge out a productive living for my loving family. When I get in these kind of moods I have to bring out my precision tools. This is a trick Ive learned over 2 years of recovery while the wreckage of my past choke slams me on a daily basis. First of all I have to hit the refresh button on my attitude of surrender, remember there's only one thing I have to do perfect and that's stay sober. OK now Ive realigned myself to the truth that nowadays I suit up show up, and trust the results to a force much grater than the formerly almighty ME. I already feel liberated. Next, I remember that the reward for my willingness, honesty, tolerance and love Is waiting for me in someplace far greater than Margate, go figure. Now this is the clutch for me, gets me out of first gear every time. I remember that beautiful sunny day I relaxed in the sun and snapped this picture of my wife her daughter and my niece jumping on a trampoline. and I thank God for that moment. Take a minute relax and find a memory that your grateful for, and If you don't have one go make one! Love you all, For real!!
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